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caught a movie recently..
"love matters"
pretty funny and nice show by jack neo..
now i noe why it's rated NC 16..
lil kids whom are not 16 yet..
dun try go in arh..
later corrupt ur brain..
not gd not gd..
hahahs! =X
rate it 9/10.
today will be a boring day for me..
sch's from 9 to 5pm..
den aft that dunno wad to do..
dun feel lyk going home yet..
but there's no where else to go...
juz feel so bored..
anyway finish dcnt lab..
now slacking in the lib..
waiting for the next lesson to come..
which is at 3pm..
so bothered by things recently..
and also by countless number of hwks and projects..
so frustrating..
exams are so near..
haven start preparing yet..
dunno wad i shld do..
the last time when i see my results..
i wasnt pleased..
due to some reasons..
i was kind of angry too..
but wadeva it's over..
probably i think studying alone is better..
but will that make my results go better?
i really wonder..
sometimes it's hard to believe wad others say..
but the fact is the more u help..
although u learn throughout the process too..
but scoring better would always be someone else..
that's from my experience..
but however, prob i shld learn to study myself..
get away from all the temptations..
be alone and focus on wad i have to study..
ohh ya..
another thing i was kinda upset about was..
actually..
dunno why seeing my frens all talking abt cny..
and gambling and all the happy times they spend..
with frens or families or relatives..
i was kind of envious..
yet i had no such times..
every yr also the same..
wad a boring cny..
dun even had the mood to actually celebrate it..
always seeing them talking about going who's hse..
and stuffs..
sometimes really dun feel lyk bothering..
but was kinda upset when i hear it..
wad i feel..
i cant tried to ignore..
sometimes i juz wish to be in part of it..
it's too hurting..
hmmm it's okay i guess..
juz need to learn as more yrs passed..
happy cny anyway to those whom played hard..
and gambled hard and win loads of money..
=/
mood: helpless.. lonely.. sad =//
hais.. i ever wish tat it's disclosed..
it's so hard to keep..
and trying ways to endure on..
but i had nv notice how troubled i am..
figuring out ways on my own..
finding a better solution..
yet pondering over and over each day..
afraid of things may go haywire..
every single minute and moment..
been thinking and scared..
juz wondering how long have i to wait..
juz for that very special word..
it's been yrs..
yet the decision was made..
wondering how i can try change tat decision.........
Friday, January 30, 2009 AT 1/30/2009 02:16:00 PM
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