back to blog. so tired. recently looks lyk so many things happening. hmmm din noe wad to do or how i shld react towards different situation. so i rather stay quiet. and look at how things pass. my frens whom i noe in the past. not those that are close to me. but those that are once not even close at all with me. have told me i've change a lot. hmmm in such way that last time i used to be kind of temperamental. but however now. it seems as though i had gone through 360 degree change. okaes i felt a lil slight change in me somehow. i feel i seriously kind of change. and i'm no longer lyk the old style i used to be. mayb becos as time goes by. one gets older by a yr. so thinking also change. hmmms

now thinking back abt how i was in the past. i realised i din understand a lot of things and dun take things seriously. or maybe i shld also say. i take things too seriously tat i couldnt take a breather or let go. recently. due to the things happening ard me. i realised i've learn to take things in a more relax manner. and take it as how it goes since nth could be change if i was to take any action or anything abt it. seriously. i could say. maybe until now. i do not even noe wad i really really wan or do. simply juz living by each day. okaes enough of it. maybe talk abt smth else.

recently kinda busy. so wasnt able to upload most of my pics. finally got a chance to do so. so uploaded into my lappy den into friendster. mayb gonna put some here too. oh well. been working lately. kinda need money as i wanna do a lot of things. and dun wanna ask from parents for money. few things i really really wanna get.

MY WANNABEES!!

1) PSP
2) sling bag
3) tennis racket
4) money to apply for dance
5) $800 plus for my coming laos trip

i think that's for all for now bah. hmmm cant think of all recently. hmmm wait till i thght of it den upload it on ma blog ba. okaes. some photos time.

juz bored. and decided to try out some new things. was surfing the net and did these.

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is this ending wad i really wan?

hmmms. wad's wrong?

i've made mistakes?

wad shld i do?

i choose this or tat. the result would still be the same

in the end, someone wont be happy?

okaes no more of that i'm going to talk abt.

because seriously, i doubt no one will understand wad i'm going through every stages of my life.

i'm not going to lian lei people again.

sry for my wrong doings if u feel so.

because i guess since the beginning.

everything was chaos.

and it's because of the presence of ME!.

SORRY FOR EVERYTHING!!!

tmr is my pretty galfren's 18th bday. she muz be damn excited now. hmmm been busy lately. as got projects and stuffs to do. hmmms loads of things to do man. tmr will be a gathering for all of us. as i'll be meeting most of my sec sch frens. hmmm. happy for my galfren. becos she've found her lover boy and i guess she'll be veh happy tmr on her bday.

hmmm wad is past? wad is relationship? wad is frenship? wad is present? which and which is impt? i really wonder. sometimes i do ask myself. would u give up something u really wan for an exchange of frenship? hmmms. let's take this as an example.

guy A noe gal at the beginning through frens from gal's class. guy A is from different class from the gal. at first, they do not talk much as because they weren't suppose to be the one talking. guy A was a rather interesting person at that time and slowly guy A and gal started talking day and day. slowly, gal started feeling for guy A but guy A doesnt noe. guy A always make fun and create jokes. gal was somehow always arguing back. and this went on for quite long. gal suddenly thght tat feelings went deeper. at first, gal was juz thinking mayb was nth only. but it actually make gal really fell for guy A. it was at this time, guy A introduced guy B to gal and said that guy B lyk gal. at this moment of time, gal was thinking how guy A felt about her instead and not abt guy B lyk her. gal always wanted to noe how guy A feel for her but darent ask guy A. instead, she continue to wait and see. as time goes by, guy A keep pushing her to guy B and say loads of gd thing abt guy B to gal. gal gets very irritated and paranoid as gal only wans to noe abt guy A and nth abt guy B. and gal starts to get unhappy and thinks a lot. becos it seems that guy A do not feel anything for her. at this moment of time, gal started to fell deeper for guy A and hopes to see guy A everyday, and wish that one day guy A can tell gal tat he lyks her and wish to be with her. but as days pass by, guy A keep telling abt his ex- gal and gal noes tat he still had feelings for her. that when gal decided to give up and hope the best for the two of them. gal tried to forget guy A but den gal failed to do so and keep thinking abt guy A. gal cried silently and left for a trip to overseas. it was a good opportunity for her to forget guy A and start anew. but gal had a hard time as when she was overseas, her mind was fully filled with guy A. she juz simply couldnt get rid of guy A. aft the trip, gal managed to put things down and gal met a guy during overseas trip and they get pretty close. shall name the guy. guy Z. gal knew she hadnt put down her feelings for guy A. gal still had feelings for guy A but she den fell for guy Z and they went steady. however, now guy A tells gal tat guy B will still continue to wait for gal no matter how long. also, guy A feel remorseful becos aft gal came back, he confessed to gal but cannot lyk gal anymore as gal had guy Z. moreover, guy B is guy A's good fren, and guy A noes that guy B lyks dal veh much, so he cannot lyk gal as if guy A tells guy B abt it, the frenship line would be broken btwn them. now, everything is in a mess. guy A says that he do not wish to break the frenship so if he had the chance, you should noe who guy A would choose.

wierd wierd wierd.

simply dun understand.

so which would u choose?

frenship? or relationship?

wad is the best solution for an example lyk tat?

wierd wierd wierd.

it's a new yr. new starting for everyone. juz to say, i've been blog hopping recently aft 2 major concerts i have done. firstly i'll talk abt the 2 concerts i've been doing. first is my SPARKSWINDS concert. it was last sat only. yea. heard good comments about the concert. but deep down we noe we were too loud. sorry audience to have blasted ur ears. hahahs but sincerely, hope that everyone enjoyed the concert that we've put up last sat. it was our Sparks IV concert. we played songs that were not played before. and yea, it's a successful concert though.

next up was np band concert. it was juz ytd. hmmm there's a lot of screw ups i guess. but mistakes were not that visible although there were parts that were rather messy. other than that, the rest was still okay i guess. every concert has gd and bad comments. we take bad comments as one to rmb to improve on for the next concert. was rather tired as in two weeks. so many practices and din have the time to rest well and most importantly, START ON MY HWK!!!!! oh my tian. i haven touch anything yet. and i'm going to prepare to be dead tmr. and i said TMR!!! for cats. hahahs sianz diaos.

as i said. been blog hopping recently after or in between when i get a chance to take a breather. read quite a number of my frens blog. somehow i dunno wad's wrong with continuing frenship in people as the way we were in the past. it's not lyk as if things has change so greatly that frenship actually pulled everyone else apart. sometimes i thght. since we've agreed to stay as frens, why cant we be as frens? there's nth wrong i noe. but it seems though frenship has lenghten our frenship apart. frens are still impt in my life but seems lyk i've been alone in this frenship road tat i thght would turn out well. truely speaking. i wish frenship still continue on in me and my frens. i dun wish to shorten the time betwn us. it's gonna be veh sad. for now. i juz hope we can always be frens. and close frens. not those one month talk once or even few months den asked : "how have u been doing? so long no talk." those kind wasnt veh gd to be heard. as this might be treated as u've forgotten ur fren and suddenly u rmbered u had these frens.

sry people i was rather busy recently. i'll give u all the photos asap. sorry to have dragged u all for so long. =/