i feel tat my body's getting weaker and weaker each day. recently, i've been more and more prone to nose bleeding and my stomach's not feeling veh well. a lof of things happen at the wrong time. i felt so useless in doing everything. common test's coming and wad have i done? NTH! and i said that NTH! haven started my revisions. still having my 'self declared' holiday. when am i going to start? i felt hopeless.

had a quarrel today? lyk juz? hmmms i guess it's me again. why do i get paranoid so easily? becos i'm unwell? becos i'm troubled? i cant stand things tat doesnt goes my way? sorry den. seriously, wad's the freaking probem with me? am i a busybody or i'm juz too sick too be seen to be bothered? hmmm i dunno wad am i ranting abt or rather wad am i saying. but being concern izzit a wrong thing to do? everything's going so not smoothly recently. i'm tired. i'm freaking tired. maybe from now on i'll juz be cold blooded. i shldnt care much abt other people's problem. i shld juz be bothered abt my own health. seriously, i've been hurt with ur doings. i dunno wad exactly u wan. and yes i cried. hmmms.

yea. i freaking hate myself now. i've not settle my own problem yet problems is adding to my wounds. i felt so pain. salt's adding to my unhealed wound. guess how pain izzit? concern? wad is concern? does anybody actually appreciate it? time? wad is time? time would heal ur wound? does it heal for mine? mine has been enlarging since dunno when? before i even leave for sabah. i thght things will be better for everybody when i leave for sabah. but i was wrong. things became worst when i come back from sabah.

sojini. ryan and rich. thanx for today. although u guys din noe i wasnt in a gd mood these few days. i was glad and happy tat i was out with u all today. i felt a lil better somehow. had fun with u all. shall meet up more often to go out again.



not in the mood anymore. leave me alone~ =/