hmmms have not been updating recently.. having slpless nights everyday and bad dreams or rather i shld say wierd dreams i ever had before.. dunno the reason why all these things had been happening.. kinda unsure too.. also reason for not updating is due to reaching home late and waking up in the aftnoon.. very simple yea? hahhas.. yea working till late everyday.. and doing closing recently.. so by den when the transport send us home.. it's lyk either 2 plus or 3 plus.. in the morning of course.. and yes.. ytd i did closing.. everyone was shack there.. all lying on either tables or the sofa chairs.. waiting for the transport to arrive.. 1am was the closing time.. but however.. the transport came at ard 2 if i nv rmb wrongly.. yea.. and before tat due to our boredness.. started to take pics.. and ytd was fun doing closing.. cos it was one person's bday.. angeline.. and we decided to plan smth to sabo her when the clock strikes 12.. hahahs den she was damn happy when the clock strikes 12.. and she noe we are going to sabo her.. somehow she sense it.. so we tried ways to ask her to go to the alfresco area.. hahhas.. luckily koko came in time and drag her out.. and decided to sing her bday songs.. hahahs guess wad?? she nv thght we would do this to her.. while she was making her wish and getting ready to blow the candles.. *briiiiiissshhhh* lols.. whipped cream's all over her head and neck.... wahhahahs.. den went chasing ard and spreading to others.. and although was a lil dirty.. but we had fun.. =)

den there was this person.. so zi lian sia.. hahahhs okaes la.. he's cartel's cook.. named koko.. hahhas super zi lian la.. keep taking photos with ma cam.. nah no more talking abt him.. dots.. anyway.. he told us loads of stories abt himself and his twin bro on the way back home in the transport.. lols.. anyway think ma mum saw the photos taken in ma cam.. and if i'm not wrong.. she's gonna scold me again.. argh hates it.. but who cares.. she's always unreasonable to whom ever i mixed with.. until the day i get ma own freedom.. den she's gd.. i juz dun seem to understand why she doesnt allows me to go steady? doesnt allow me to mix with ma frens.. argh.. until now.. i still dun get her reply.. and i dun think she even noes how to answer me.. tat's why she nv give me a reply.. UNREASONABLE!!! hates.. ma frens are all able to get their parent's consent in going into relationships.. but mine.. argh.. she's unreasonable.. and wad's wrong with me going out with ma frens.. i dun understand.. forget it!! juz dun lyk people who doesnt give me an explanation why i cant do this or that.. nvm i'll wait.. for the reply.. i'm good.. and i'm changin to be gd.. i used to lie for a lot of things.. but now.. i want to be truthful.. so i have to change.. and for now.. i can say.. i'm not lying for anything anymore.. i'm really working.. i'm really going home at that time.. i really reach home at that time..

i'll promise to change.. and stop doing things to stop me from getting near ma frens.. i juz dun understand u.. why other people's mum can be so open to their children.. and letting them do wad they wan and u cant.. why are u so narrow-minded.. argh.. hated.. nvm i'll wait.. i'll wait till i'm 18.. and by then i'm already grown up.. so stop ordering me to do things or not allowing me to do things i wan.. waiting patiently.. and i'll change for sure.. for u to see.. i'm not the brat u think i am.. and i show u every of ma frens.. i'll make sure i bring them home..

anyway let's talk smth happy.. hmmms.. results coming out in feb.. hmmms.. afraid that i mite not do well.. hoping i can pass and get to the course i wan.. and of course.. as i said before.. cartel's people tat i've known.. they're friendly and nice.. nice knowing them and working with them.. okaes.. let me list a names of those whom i noe recently.. ma new frens from cartel.. hmmms.. okaes start with the highest authority ones.. ma managers.. jin and ramli.. den followed by ma supervisor and captain.. jacky and mas respectively.. den crews we have.. angeline,hansheng,ong,geraldine,ruoxuan,ana,kaiching,pamela,zul,fifie,fidaous,paul,yingxuan and cookers are koko,josy,calvin and some more.. hahahs forget their names.. hahhas and yea working tmr too.. so have to slp early later.. as before work i have alumni.. kkaes take kaiires ma frens =)) smile~





*misses..
misses..
and loads of misses..
is the word she can describe..
of her feelings to u..
waiting for the day to be accepted..
waiting patiently..
and changing herself quietly..
she's gonna be someone truthful..
she's gonna change..
as she promised..
she will..
although in the past..
she've done things wrong..
and some cannot accept her anymore..
she's sad..
she regretted of her own doings..
and so..
she's gonna change..
she's gonna crawl from below..
and start anew..
she'll definately change..
to a better person next time..
pls believe in her..
she's changing..
sorry to those whom she've hurt in the past..
hoping for forgiveness..
and definately the forgiveness from someone..
it's okae if he doesnt forgive her..
she noes why..
pls wait for her to change anew..
she'll change..
DEFINATELY BETTER!!