*pics taken during trip back to jurong* ana..me..mj

hmmms.. woah.. it's been so long i haven been blogging.. hmmm.. shall start blogging again.. hmms.. nth much happen recently.. juz plain working every night.. and alumni band practices.. my routine have been going on lyk this.. hadnt had much fun either.. wanted to go for ma pri sch's gathering at downtown east.. but stupid.. argh juz hate ma parents.. they dun allow.. freakin unfair can? argh.. why cant i have a chance to meet up with ma pri sch frens? wad's wrong.. juz dun freaking respect their decisions sometimes... argh!!!! dun lyk it!!!

wadeva so.. i'm still gonna find ma time to go out with ma frens.. i DUN CARE!!! but seems lyk everytime u guys are planning things.. always crashes with my working time.. oh well nvm.. mayb i really dun have the fate to go out wit u people anymore bahs.. haiz.. kinda sadded yea? yes i am.. very indeed.. has been missing a lot of fun these past week.. thanks those who drop by at ma working place to look for me and mj.. was happy to see u guys.. well.. smth i have to blog abt.. hmmm.. dunno if i'm sway or wad.. i've fell down for 3 times for 3 consecutive days at ma work!!! can u believe it? argh.. freaking pain now.. had bruises on both ma legs and hands.. and guess wad.. ma manager bought me plasters!! lols.. thanx.. but nv used them.. hahahas.. and when he gave me on the 2nd day... i fell down again.. and at nite he msg me and said.."i hope ma plaster came in handy!!" lols.. okaes.. well thanx him anyway..

ytd was working too.. but no more falling down.. yeah.. i managed to catch ma balance everytime i walked into the kitchen.. and of course the kitchen people were nice too.. they reminded me of the slippery floor due to mopping and tat's why i'm save from falling.. hahas.. and well.. ytd was a thirsty day.. hard day as well.. customers were lyk coming in and out of no where.. was tiring though.. but not as tiring as the first day.. kinda get used to it already.. and thanx to paul.. for making such a nice drink for me.. hehehs =).. but he was also the one who make me choke.. lols.. cos was drinking chocolate latte.. and somehow i forgotten to use a straw.. lols.. and he said this when i was drinking it.."hmms.. there's smth called a straw that u can used" lols.. and before i can catch ma breathe.. i got choke.. hahahas okaes.. but still okaes la.. thanx him anyway.. =) hmmms work till 11.25pm ytd.. was tiring though.. left with ana,boi,hansheng,angeline and mj to take train.. lols had some laughter on the way to the mrt station.. hahas.. den went seperate ways to take train.. boi and angeline went the east side of the green line while me,mj,ana and hanshaeng went the west way of the green line.. was pretty shack in the train.. so although we were a lil noisy.. hahahs but fun time tgt.. =)

nice knowing ma frens in cartel.. they're nice people and funny too!! =)



*misses..
misses..
misses him loads!!
he's back..
but she's still sad somehow..
nvm it's okaes..
juz leave her alone..
and she'll be fine..
no worries =)..

hmmms.. chalet for primary sch mates is nearing.. hmms.. shld i go or shld i not?? so long nv see them and stuffs.. and moreover.. no longer any pri sch mates are close to me anymore.. go there later be alone.. not very fun eh.. hmms.. shld i?? maybe i shldnt think of it now.. hahhaas.. shall wait for ma next week's working schedule to be outt first.. before i can confirm whether i'll be going a not.. sorry andrew for all the trouble.. hahahas he's been bugging me to go for days.. but cos ma next wk's schedule isnt out yet so cant confirm.. will confirm will u soon yea?? =))

yea working's fun but tiring.. hahhas guess cos i've nv work before.. thus not knowing the meaning of tired means.. yea.. but now i finally understand le =)).. anyway.. had nv had this kind of feelings before.. working 3 days continuously for 3 nites was going to be tired.. wasnt supposed to work ytd but due to lack of manpower.. manager called to ask me to work ( add on to last entry).. and today for me to work.. the reason is very simple.. cos sat i'm having alumni prac at nite.. thus.. had to change my shift to today.. and so sat i'll not be working..

hmms.. anyway christmas is juz ard the corner.. have fun yea people... guess most of ma frens are down with programmes and yea.. wad will i be doing? hmmms.. not very sure maself either.. but i'll be working nite shift on the christmas eve.. and maybe aft go countdown wit mj.. as we're working tgt that day too.. yea take kaiire ma frens.. have fun =)..


*gonna miss him real soon..
it's been 1wk or so..
that she've not given a chance to meet up wit him..
and soon..
tmr he's leaving for genting..
and it's gonna be a week again..
so that will make up 2 wks..
aWwWw~
nv had this kinda feelings before..
but she's missing him real loads..
and of course..
not being so selfish..
she wishes him bon voyage..
hoping him have loads of fun and do take kaiire..
enjoy urself yea? =)
-misses.misses.misses-

today woke up ard 12.20.. cause past few days the work, making me very tired.. hmmm.. call mj ard 12 plus, she told me that she will be ready at 2 like that.. so i get myself ready and set of ard 2 plus.. well, 3.15 den she turn up!! argh.. waited her so long.. hahaha.. met her and we went to have our lunch.. we ate DUCK RICE!! suddenly, my duck rice became not tasty le.. cause my manager wanted me to work today... cant u believe, last min seh.. hmmm... mj went home with mi to get changed and den rush to work..

wooo!! today lots of customers sia.. damn tired can?? haha.. and sad part is when i toasting the bread, i scalded my finger.. so painful now..aWwWwWwWw~ hmmm.. actually our work ended at ard 10 plus de.. but manager asked us whether we can stay till 11 ma, mj and i agreed so we worked extra..

after our work, the last train was like 11.45 to 12, and we ended our work at 11.30!! we were so tired, and had to rush for our last train.. phew.. luckily we were able to catch our last train.. well.. is a TIRING DAY for mi...

hmmms... juz started work ytd.. phew.. was tiring man.. walking ard.. cleaning up places.. my legs got so tired and toes were very pain aft the night shift i worked.. hmmms.. although hours were short.. but it's still alrite aft all.. learn some new things there.. people there were nice too!! =).. yea.. and yea.. i'm working only part-time there.. lucky arh.. if i work full time.. OMG!! i think i'll die flat once i reached home.. and next day i have to wake up very early again.. *phew*.. hmmm.. tmr i'll be working again.. and also today wishing mj gd luck.. she's working now.. hope she's not afraid of it.. hahahas jia you worhs =).. calling her tonite.. hope she's doing well.. quite worried she cant handle.. hmmms.. =/

although journey to and fro were boring and long.. but still alrite la.. time passes very quickly once i started work.. and always rushing for time as if i dun.. i'll have to take the last train home.. or even no more to take den have to spend money on cab.. sadded =/.. how i wish someone were nice enough to drive me home.. lols.. but i dun think there's one yea?.. hmmms =/.. nth much happened last few days.. so din blog about it..

hmmms.. as for christmas.. it'll be saddening as he wont be here.. also on christmas eve i'll be working till late.. saddening.. but okaes la.. at least i wont spend time passing at home.. nth to do.. also i'll be working with mj tgt on chirstmas eve.. thus wont be that bored.. as we can leave tgt =)..

wishlists has been updated.. now wanting more of:~
*sling bags frm n.u.m (saw a few nice one but ex to get it).. hmmms =/ sadded..
*tops (2 pieces one) -- long sleeves (more)
-- short sleeves
*bottoms --more pants (3/4 or knee length)
*shorts



*missing..
missing..
missing u loads and loads..
why? why? why?
why cant u juz let her decide who she wans to be?
why does u have to object everything tat she wans?
why cant she choose frens she wans?
why cant she be wit frens she chose?
it's always questions haunting aft her..
cant u be better?
she's not mixing with one grp of baddies..
and moreover..
her frens are gd frens..
not as those wad u always think..
u arent giving them a chance..
always showing ur bad attitude towards me and them..
wad are u trying to show?
showing ma frens u're bad..
making them dun wanna come my hse?
sometimes she juz dun seem to lyk ur choices..
frens..
sorry for putting ur at bad positions..
she also doesnt noe wad she shld do..
she doesnt lyk the decision makers..
always doesnt allow her to hang out with u people..
worstly..
she doesnt even noe wad's the real reason behind it..
she hates it..
at least if a gd reason was behind it..
she thankfully will accept it..
now????
nth..
and it's nth at all..
wad's there to believe it..
or bother her from getting tgt..
going out with ma frens..
loathes and loathes and more loathes..
-tired-shack-
hates to think abt it anymore..
u doesnt wish to let her do anything..
and doesnt even allow her to go out with her frens..
u're unreasonable..
argh..
her life's saddening and tighten..
haiz =/

ya ya.. i'm wrong.. scold me for wadvea u lyk.. u have no rights to choose for me who i wanna be with.. and that's MY own decision.. and get lost.. i dun need u to interfere with whom i lyk or wadeva so.. i dun care u lyk ma frens a not.. i'm still gonna be with that grp of frens i have.. be it u wanna ground me at home.. or wadeva u can do to not let me out with ma frens.. i TELL u.. i'm still gonna be with them and whom i lyk.. since u dun let me go out with them.. den i tell u.. i'm gonna ask them to my hse.. i dun care whether u lyk it a not.. i'm gonna bring them here..

and pls.. i'm not trying to not telling u anything abt me meeting tat grp or so.. pls.. u are my best fren.. and u're working.. u noe how to feel left out.. dun i? yes.. i'm feeling more bored than u now.. yes i noe i'm wrong for not telling u anything at all.. leaving u out.. i'm not feeling very gd now either.. u're working and i'm not.. yes.. i juz wan to go out cant i? with whom ever i wan cant i? and yea.. saying u guys always ganna left alone.. den wad u wan me to do? as if i dun wanna go out lyk tat.. i dun need u guys.. i hate u guys in fact for now.. everybody.. EVERYONE IN THIS FREAKING WORLD!! leave me alone.. juz some idoitic person i am.. yea den u guys shall scold me for whoever i am.. scold me wadeva u wan.. so much u hated abt me.. den scold me la.. some kinds of ass**** people u people are.. i dun have true frens.. and i tell u i'm alone.. i stand on myself.. scold me for whoever u wan.. u wan leave ur name a not.. it's none of my business.. u people are juz some kinds of jerks.. thanx to u guys.. for wad i am today.. i now wad i'm doing.. so get lost from me if u guys are juz some kinds of frens who juz wanna backstab me.. some kinds of jerks u people are.. *claps* congrats that u people have won the victory!! wooo..

*slaps slaps* to meiyi.. wake up.. and i no need u people to come talk sense to me.. i hate u people.. dun be a hypocrite infront of me.. get lost if u're juz trying to act nice infront of me.. and i mean it.. GET LOST!!!!

today so fun.. went job hunting with mj.. hehes =).. nice going out with her.. went to suntec first followed by marina square.. hehes.. was pretty tired.. walking here and there.. lols.. but had fun yea.. then went to candy empire.. yea bought chocolates!! lols.. my favourite!! luvs luvs.. den went back to job hunting again.. hehe.. aft that tired le.. so went back to IMM to eat dinner.. by tat time was ard 9pm already.. lols.. so late.. hahahas.. but still was tired and hungry.. lols.. went to eat japanese food.. lols.. it was spicy! lols... both of us eat until all our sweat coming out sia.. lols.. den went to mj hse there to take 187 back home.. hahahas.. but before going home.. went to take a few photos.. lols.. then now home swiit home.. =) damn tired today.. gonna rest early le =)


*hmmm..
she's missing someone now..
very much indeed..
when can she get to see him again..
he's leaving for trip soon..
misses~
gd luck for ur tests! =)

today shall be juz a day for quiz and test.. hmmm =/

The rules: Bold the statements which are true to you. Italise the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the rest alone.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't want TeeVee these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've been in a threesome.
I've been the pyscho-ex in past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I've changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone else bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of course, and scar free.
I need money right now.
I like sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I've lost money in Las Vegas.
I've at least one sibling.
I've worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
I'm usually pessimistic.
I've a lot of moodswings.
I've a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I've pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoyed talking on the phone.
I practically live in trackpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cellphone.
I believe in GOD.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I've no idea what i want to do with the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have change a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I've a lot to learn.
I've been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I'm shy around the opposite sex.
I've tried alcohol before.
I've made a move on a friend's significant other or cursh in the past.
I would die for my best friends.
I think Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I don't pick my food.
I've used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Micheal Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch SpongeBob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with girls.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone i've ever met.
I'm comfortable with who i am right now.
I've more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot whenever i can.
I've jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I work at Macdonald restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I want to go to a college out of state.
I love sausages.
I love kisses.
I fell for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without eyeliners. gothics!
I can't whistle.
I've ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal i have written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees are a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tatoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 convections.
I will collect anything, the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

lols.. saw this in one of ma fren's blog.. so went to try out.. hmmm cant believe it.. i dun think i am one.. lols..

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

You Are An ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

woohoo.. job hunting was tiring.. haiz.. guess i'll have to go back to the one i'm with btrice darhl one.. hmmm actually still thinking whether shld i?? went to some places to try out.. but all is on waiting list.. hmmm.. now currently waiting for another one.. hope tmr have.. hmmm.. anyway had fun today and ytd.. nice nice.. was spending ma time with guan and frens.. hahahs first time meeting them.. really a little awkward.. but still.. they're nice people.. i can say.. really nice people.. but they're one grp of shopping spree.. lols.. nth to comment?.. hahahs.. all i can say is.. i salute to u GUYS!! lols.. woo.. i think gals nv spend so much time in a single shop before.. OMG la! can? lols.. but okaes la.. den went walking ard the area and stuffs.. lols.. but hahaha funny thing is.. while i was with them.. guess who is saw? hahahs.. i saw kangwei..kailin..and jiahui.. hahahs..woops.. i guess they ought to noe yeah... hahahs.. and then guan send me home.. u're nice and swiit!! hehhes.. although u're living so far away from me.. but i can feel u near.. hmmm wonder if u're home now? hoping so.. i hope u din miss the last train back.. hmmms..

hmmm.. i wanna work!! when can i start working? haiz.. that's gonna be a question mark in ma head.. actually quite interested in some places one.. but some are hiring age above 18? lols.. seh la.. okaes nvm.. ahhahas.. still keep trying until i found one.. and of course a wishing for those frens who are working now.. hope u dun tired out urself yeah? take gd kaiire of ur health!! kkaes gonna slp early.. looking for jobs tmr again.. tmr's band prac.. hope ma juniors play well yeah.. take kaiire and work hard worhs.. after POP le.. so now muz work towards orientation and competition worhs!! GAMBATE!! =).. dun worries.. i'll be back when i'm free.. jia you yeah guys =))




*she feels u..
although u're not near..
she's feeling sad..
but it's okae..
sometime later she'll be used to it..
she misses the times tgt..
hoping everyday will be lyk a fairytale..
of course she hopes everyday comes..
as quickly as possible..
so as to get a glance of things happening ard her..
u're nice and swiit..
she noes..
and she's looking forward to every single day..
every single moments..
she felt swiitness in her heart..
she've burst into happiness..
no longer affect by words from her ex..
she's gonna lead a new life..
and she's gonna do well in this..
it's going to change her life..
she'll be happy living through it..
and going through this path of life =)

hayati..me..mel hehehes taken on POP day.. Hearts them lOadS! goNnA MisS tHeM! =)

ytd was ma passing-out-parade.. thanx to those who came to see ma band's passing out parade.. very nice of u people.. =)).. yeah.. and now i'm a ex-member of the band already.. no longer a part of the band.. hope ma band will continue to do well for everything.. next yr's gonna be competition year.. jia you worhs ma juniors!! i'll be back to help out if u need ma help kaes? misses u guys loads.. ytd was a heartfelt day.. was damn happy and touched by some of ma juniors.. words that i've nv heard from them.. felt so touched aft hearing it.. i wish u guys all the best yea.. i din noe u guys really put me in tat place.. was glad and happy.. hope u people strive for the best among the best yea.. i noe u guys can do it.. and all the best to the people who's been promoted and also to ma 2 best recruits.. happy for u guys.. dun let us down yea? gambate! =)

to those that were not promoted.. dun be too upset kaes? it's not u guys not fit to be promoted.. but juz hoping u guys can do better.. =)0 aim for the promotion in june next yr kaes? really felt so touched when i hear the words coming out from ma sec 2s going on sec 3 next yr.. din noe i stand a place in ur heart.. i hope all of u all the best.. i'm happy for u guys.. to see u guys promoted and stuffs.. =). although i din tear for u guys.. but in my heart i flooding.. shall be back to see u guys very soon.. misses*

although now i've seem to be out of band and out of sch.. juz waiting for ma results to be out.. but i still feel that i've nv had the chance to play out with ma frens.. but why? why cant i have the time out myself.. the freedom to play? i dun understand.. i see ma frens having their freedom to play.. go chalet enjoying themselves loads.. but me? seems lyk i'm not granted the permission t0 play out.. moreover.. exams are over.. cant i have the time to play.. why are u stopping me from going anywhere i lyk.. i go out.. u not happy.. i nv go out.. i'm so damn freaking bored at home.. i dun lyk ma life now.. i dunno wad u wan.. wad exactly do u wan me to do? recently i also dun have the time to go out.. was always busy going to sch doing band stuffs.. is it wrong to go out to play.. i dun understand.. i juz wan to have more time with ma frens.. i'm not learning bad.. i've nv been with bad frens these days.. juz going out with ma frens also u dun lyk.. i hate ur decisions.. i dun lyk it.. juz freaking hate it.. it's already end of exams and sch for me already.. aint i supposed to be playing out with ma frens.. i dun understand why i cant get this chance or freedom to play? why are u always thinking tat ma frens are bad peers.. seeing u lyk this.. i guess ma frens are also afraid to face u.. and i'm going through a period where now i'm meeting new frens.. i cant be staying with only this small grp of frens i used to have.. i need more new frens.. i'm not doing anything wrong.. why cant u accept my new frens.. i dun understand.. i'm getting very tired of asking.. and i hate u for doing all this to me.. i guess it's probably wad i deserve.. haiz.. hate*

HAPPY BDAY MA BRO!!!!! SWIIT 19 THIS YR YEAH!!


juz ended ma 5 days band camp this wed.. and today is already friday.. and very soon sunday.. the very crucial day for ma bandsmen is coming.. and i guess.. i can feel their anxiety and excitement for the day to approach us.. and also.. i can guess roughly wad their emotions might be on that very particular day.. anyway.. juz a word to those bandsmen whom have been viewing ma blog.. no matter whether u get the award u long for or whether u get promoted or not.. pls do not feel discourage or too happy with it.. i seriously hope that if u guys get promoted.. pls do ur job as an NCO and know wad u are doing.. pls do not disappoint ms chan.. as she has been with us for many years.. moreover.. next year is a very crucial year.. i wan u guys to stand by with ms chan and work hard for competition next year.. rmb our aim? yeah... if u wan to do it.. do it to your best!! i sincerely hope u guys put in more effort and get better next year..

also.. to add on.. for those who did not achieve wad u expected to get.. pls.. dun feel sad.. moreover u have to work even harder to prove urself and the higher authorities tat u can and aim for it.. dun becos u din achieve and then u started to slacken down.. i wish u guys all the best this sun! =)0

ARGH!!! and i'm freaking pissed today.. wad the hell is going on with these peoples.. ask u guys to do a simple thing.. and now? where is that thing??? did u guys even pass it to us? wad have u guys been doing in the camp? freaking pissed with u people man.. was actually thinkin of plannin an outing for u guys after POP.. and now.. i'm boiling till above my head already.. and now wad? am i or to say.. me and mj are supposed to clear these shits for u guys??? u guys nv even tell me or her when u guys are ready to do all these things.. and now? one by one dunno where the hell u guys go.. ARGH!! DAMN PISSED WITH U GUYS!!!!!






*shld she or shld she not?
guess she've made up her mind ytd..
yea..
she's happy wit her decisions..
and she guess u are too..
yea???
may things work out better now..
hope so bahs..
her life in the band is coming to an end..
and hoping that she's gonna be better..
she's not gonna let anyone down anymore..
she's gonna work hard for everything now..
and proves to be a stronger person..
and not gonna let u down..
no matter how bad u see her as a person..
she's gonna work for her future..
ur words are not gonna affect her anymore..
be it u wanna say or not..
she's not gonna bother anymore..
things will be solved one day..
-when there's a will, there's a way-
it's always been in her mind..
and from now on..
she's gonna work this way..
staying strong everyday.