tmr's band camp.. 5 days.. preparations for ma POP.. yea.. gonna be a tough one yea? hmmm.. shall work hard for the last few days.. and ma last performance in the band.. ANYONE WANNA COME SEE MA BAND PASSING OUT PARADE??? DO FEEL FREE TO COME DOWN ON SUN 3RD DEC AT YUHUA SEC SCH @ 4 PM!!!! IF U FREE.. JUZ COME AND TAKE A LOOK YEA? =))

*off to slp*





`ohh man.. such a loser.. nv seen such a person before.. thanx.. maybe tat's wad u really are.. and yea till today den i noe.. nice one.. yea i did lied.. yea.. i admit i was wrong in the first place.. and yea i did apologise.. din i? yea.. i did many wrong things.. but tat doesnt mean i cannot change.. juz as said.. i'm the wolf who's cunning and everythin u thght i was to be.. yea i'm bad.. i'm wadeva u call me.. and yea bitch.. and it's all ur fault to brought me to who i am today.. and maybe it's ma frens fault.. not to mention who.. of course someone who's close to me brought me to who i am today.. now i realised how come i will become lyk this.. i noe.. i understand.. and i'm changing.. but u? for such a long time.. u're still blaming me.. hating me.. so i dun deserve a change? i dun deserve anything else except all the hatings and all the scoldings of bitch or wadeva so from u? and why? why dun i get a chance to be forgiven? why? and moreover.. during tat period of time i din i wasnt cheating ur feelings at all.. i told u in the beginning when we patched aft ma bday.. din i? i told u i cant give my fullest for ma love to u.. as ma feelings have long faded.. din i? i rmbed i did say that.. and yea.. u have frens.. i do too.. does tat mean i cant go out with who i wan.. yes.. going out with a guy alone wasnt wad u will do.. and yea i told u.. i grew up with a grp of guys(cousins).. i dun see a prob.. and i'm totally innocent.. i din do anything at all lo.. why dun u juz believe me.. okaes i'm a lier.. tat's why u dun believe.. the point where i dun see a prob is becos so long as if both parties din do anything.. wad's the big fuss abt? why dun u say u dun even believe me at tat moment or even the first time i'm outta with a guy.. and yea i lied to go out.. yea.. all these i know.. and u're pretty sure of it.. and yea i said i'm sorry.. at least i realised my mistakes can? i know it's ma bad.. i'm sorry.. and i dun deserved to be named all those by u when i din even do anything wrong..

stupid smile.. shack *tired*
do i look red? hahaha sun burn!!! sianz =/
gals outta for swimming today =)
mad.. my model!! wahahas.. same green yea? =)
beautiful lights put up for christmas in JP!
wooo.. wad a tired day today man.. aww.. went for swimming in the morning with mj and mad.. yeah.. supposed to meet at 10.. but everyone woke up late.. hahah and yeah.. we meet up at 11 instead.. hahaha den went for swimming... although the weather wasnt tat gd... but still we three got sun burn.. hahaha.. so tired though.. now my face damn pain and shoulders too.. hahaa.. my face now still damn hot and red la.. hahaha.. den aft tat went to meet up with btrice.. and watch movie.. watch tat movie 'step up' for lyk the 2nd time already? hahaha.. but it's nice though.. hehehe =).. juz love the way they dance.. and yea.. i'm not gonna give up on the dream i'm pursing for.. DANCING!!! wOohOo`.. hehehe..

hmmm was rather tiring ytd and today.. let me summerise wad i did ytd and today.. ytd was really kinda tired.. as i woke up at 8+? prepare and headed to sch to see ma band.. started off the practice with mace work with ma leaders and rv drum major? i think so.. yappie.. recap with them the basics and then checking on them one by one.. den taught ma leaders the passing down of drum major procedures.. den headed to the band side.. was guiding them along with the procedures of passing out parade.. only the recruits and the main band.. was pretty successful and the recruits do learn fast.. and yea.. although only one part of it.. they did well but still have more rooms for improvements.. den was combine practice for them and for me.. i started practicing for ma alumni pieces.. was rather hard.. really need more practice den can.. a lot of things happened ytd.. to some extent some things shall not be said and yea.. was rathering tiring as i was in sch the whole day from 9.15am to 9+pm at night den headed for dinner and home..

today had alumni practice too.. reached sch at ard 1.35pm and started practicing.. songs were nice but i was a little tired.. and yea.. almost fell aslp somehow.. haha.. but still endure throughout.. den accidentally sprained ma ankle due to when i was abt to keep ma stands into the cupboard.. now was rather painful.. cant walk properly either.. and yea.. was feeling very tired now.. okaes.. shall update till here.. eyes are feeling heavy now.. nites






*she's tired..
really damn tired..
wad is she going to do now..
*thinking*..
making lives difficult for her..
i guess you are..
she's seems to be not bothering abt some things on the outside..
but she's feelin weak and troubled inside..
she dunno which step to take..
to carry on..
she told her buddy..
and promised tat she wont hurt anyone..
she will do as she said..
she wans to relax..
wans to leave this place..
wans to take a break from everything..


give her a break wont u?
why are u doing this to her when things are already long over?
wad is the real meaning behind all ur motives..
wad are u trying to do?
she doesnt understand at all..
u're rather selfish and arrogant..
dun u think so?
it doesnt mean that once a person make a mistake..
the person cannt be forgiven..
and look wad u're doing right now?
cursing and swearing over juz one thing..
cos she did smth bad to u..
and this leads to mnths and mnths of u..
doing all the cursing and swearing over her..
wad kind of person are u?
dont u think it's ridiculous..
no other people have been so ridiculous lyk u before..
always keeping the hatred in u..
and doing this to particularly only her..
seeing her suffer u're happy rite?
u're such a freak..
wad's ur true meaning behind all this?
tell her den..
she wishes to noe why..

*saddens*

EXAMS OVER!!!!! WoOhOo`..TIME TO ENJOY!!!!!!

yea.. finally ma exams are over.. no need to think abt studies and look at books ANYMORE!!!! wOohOo.. nice nice.. yea.. will be enjoying ma self loads from now yes? hahaha.. take care ma frens.. gonna miss u guys soon.. wont be seeing each other anymore until collecting of results? wahahahah.. nice nice.. <3 <3 <3.. fun and fun and FUN!!!!! wOohOo`..

amaths paper wasnt tat bad aft all.. was pretty okae.. but however chem i think was a disastrous.. i dun think i will be able to do well for chem.. hmmm.. as paper was rather hard.. hmmm.. checked with Mr Tan for paper 1.. and was rather saddening.. as i din score well.. minus a lot of marks.. and lyk so damn upsetting.. my paper 2 was rather hard too.. mostly all thinking questions.. calculations were lyk only added up to 1/4 of the paper.. OMG!.. sianz la.. dots.. hard arh hard.. nvm.. so long it's over i'm happy.. hehehe.. gonna meet up with frens soon.. miss them so much and time for enjoyment together.. hehe =)

yea and weekends fully booked.. whahaha.. so if u wanna booked me.. come early worhs~ wahahha... jkin... haha yappie weekends going to start alumni prac.. and of course i'm going for a relaxation.. going gym and swimming on sat before going for practice.. gonna start keeping fit instead of eating and eating and EATING!.. woo.. that's gonna cos me to have grown loads of weight.. haha.. shall keep fit for now.. heheh =).. for peeps who are still having exams.. hope u all do well for ya last papers ya? gambate! juz ENDURE for a few more days.. and u jolly well can play le.. heheh.. nice nice.. O lvls soon coming to an end and band camps not far either.. had to start planning for some things ya? and ya.. waiting for ma band major to finish her exams and intensive eyeing on potential peeps now..wahahha =x.. tat's a sure for upcoming days.. heheh..

anyway anyone wans to come for ma band Passing-Out-Parade? if ya do.. it's on sun(3rd dec) ard 4pm lyk tat.. do feel free to come down to yuhua sec to take a look? wahahha.. ma last day in the band shall be on that day.. and SEC 4S.. yea.. rmb wad we said before stepping down for O lvl? we gonna start preparing or else.. there's no time left!!! =))








*she's feeling happy now..
i guess only for this pretty moment..
for she have put down her burden..
on her studies..
and now..
she's gonna play and enjoy..
a lot of upcoming events coming up..
she hope days could faster pass and bring it closer..
gave out a sigh of relief..
she had made it to the end of her exams..
as for now..
all her mind thght of..
was to play and play and play..
her darhl has got herself a car on her waiting list..
shld she do the same..
or juz hack care?
for she still has no decisions..
she shall juz place it of her mind for now..
leaving it to time to bring back to her..
she enjoyed being accompanied by her frens..
her darhls..
and of course..
her bandsmen..
who have changed her to who she is today..
she's gonna miss the times being with them..
she's happy tat they made her character..
and of course not only stopping her..
but she's gonna changed for the better.. =)

phys paper has ended.. phew.. lucky it wasnt tat bad aft all.. now worries are uprising again.. hmmm tmr's paper is amaths paper 2 and chem papers.. argh.. dead.. both tough papers are coming.. today i'm lyk going to pia for my last few papers and THAT"S THE END OF EXAMS!!!.. woohoo~ i'm so damn happy can?! wahahha.. =X.. lucks people.. GAMBATE!!!! =)

alrite i'm gonna start studying a little for ma geog mcq at 4.30 .. take care peeps =) .. let's meet up with people soon and ENJOY!! shall be the word in my mind RIGHT aft Os.. woOo~ had programmes planned for sat and sun.. woOo hOoOo~.. *waiiting to ENJOY!!!*






*wad exactly is she thinking now?..
wondering wad's her mind thinkin?..
in fact she herself also doesnt noe..
let's wait and see..

hmmm..
guess she's forcing herself too hard these days..
hadnt had enough slp..
wasnt feeling well?
she guess so..
she'll be fine soon?
yes i guess..
right aft Os..
she looking forward to sat and sun..
her days where exams are over..
she's gonna play and enjoy till mad..
no one can stop her..
yea..
and time for meeting up with frens!!
<3<3 luvs luvs..
..mUaCkXx..

another paper down today.. now still left with phys paper1 and2 and geog paper 1 for tmr and on thurs.. it's amaths paper 2 and chem paper 1 and 2.. hmmm.. yeah.. 2 more days and i'll be free from exams already.. woohooo~.. nice nice.. hmmm.. wad am i gonna do aft o lvl? to think of it.. i guess i no need to plan le.. as aft o lvl gonna go back for band prac for alumni.. band camp.. POP.. start working.. hmmm.. yappie.. guess it'll be lyk this bahs.. hahaha.. and ya maybe i shld only be planning where shld i be going to play out aft o lvl.. and of course not forgetting abt ma band passing out parade.. really muz have a thorough dicussion with ma band major..wahahah.. yea.. it'll be lyk this for now i guess.. and yea.. i've juz acknowlegde a best buddy recently.. haha.. great now i have 2 great darhl sistaz and a best buddy.. that's gd enough for now.. =)..

hmmm.. juz took at the admission enquires for the course i long for.. and OMG!.. to ma surprise.. it's 13?! argh.. hard eh.. dun think will be able to get it either.. juz hoping for the best now.. hmmm.. yappie.. juz hoping to get into the course or else i'll be choosing another one which it's cut off point is 17.. hmmm wishing for the best now.. =) and yea hoping i can do well for o lvl.. and happy with ma results..

o lvl's ending soon.. and guess n lvl results are gonna release soon ya? gd lucks ma frens.. hope ur did well for ya n lvls.. and to ma fellow n lvl bandsmen.. hope ur did well and go up to 5n.. and yea not forgetting muz aim for the best for next yr competition ya? wishing u guys gd lucks.. and yea.. i'm gonna start studying for ma next paper le.. or else.. i die flat tmr... wahahas.. take kaiire ma frens~ all da best for last few papers =)





*she's living in the world of her own..
not gonna influence by anyone else..
except her darhls, best buddy and frens..
she's gonna leave alone other things..
looking forward to a place of peace..
leading a life of her own..
and only her choice..
she would not regret..
she's hoping to release her wonders..
and yes she did it..
to her best buddy..
and now..
her decisions shall be the most crucial one..
for when she is released from stress..
she'll be thinking of wad's happening next?
as her best buddy said..
'there's no more excuse to avoid'..
but still she wanna run away..
not gonna think abt anything..
she's gonna play and enjoy hard but not think hard..
tat's her way of leading her life now..*

woo.. so tired today.. slept very late ytd.. and got to wakey very early today.. so damn tired.. think only slept for 4 hrs jiu wake u le.. haha.. hmmm was kinda bored with my blogskin le.. so change to this one.. hahha.. actually wanted to change to the deathnote tat blog skin.. but a sudden change of mind.. had chosen best 3 from all the blogskins.. but decided on this.. haha.. hmmm.. damn tired and slpy now.. hmmm.. might be turning in earlier for the day today... yappie.. anyone wanna comment on ma new blogskin? hahah..




sat 11/11


cute baby isnt she? hahah was playing with her =)
me and btrice darhl..<3 her loads!!
our relfections!
2nd take =)
guess where are we and wad we did? whahaha =X

ytd was out with btrice.. hahah.. so qiao saw miao.. hahha so fated to meet ya?? hahaha.. some more so direct.. same cabin some more.. hahah <3 <3 <3.. haha hmmm took some photos.. haha tiring day.. den met up with zk at night.. was talking for quite long den went home swiit home.. right zk? wahahaha.. longest talk i guess.. hahaa.. nice one.. will have this kind of chats with ya again de.. hahaha.. was laughing out becos of some stuffs.. hahaha interesting life u had ya? wahahha =X.. nice one.. will hope to hear more.. wahahha den i can laugh more.. hahaha =)

nice one nice one... so many people started to blog liao worhs.. muz see wad they're going to blog abt... wahahha.. happy bloging ya people.. hahah =)

few days of exams more.. I WANNA PLAY!!!!!!!.. juz endure endure and ENDURE!!!!woohoo.. soon coming to an end.. wahhaha =).. so damn HAPPY!!!!

I MISS MY CUZZIES!!!! WHEN CAN I GO BACK?!!!!! I MISS THEM SOOOOO DAMN MUCH!!!! BEEN 2 OR 3 YRS?? I HAVEN SEEN THEM ALREADY!!!! ARGH I WANN GO BACK!!! ANYONE WAN TO GO BACK WITH ME?!!!! HHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..... ARGH....... but of course still muz wait.. maybe next yr chinese new yr den can go back.. so sianz.. I WANNA GO BACK RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! FASTER FINISH O LVL AND I WANNA PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


-i miss my cousins-
waimun..wailoon..waiseng..ahben..raymond..liting..julian..ahying ying..and some other cousin brothers which i've forgotton their names.. woops.. how can i? ahaaahahaha.. =X.. juz missing them too much =/






.she's vexed and confused and miserable. =/

out to study with btrice today.. hmmm.. was kinda bored so.. took some pics.. was taking snapshots hahaha.. kinda funny ones.. hahaha.. =)

tmr's eng paper.. the most crucial one.. hope it will be easy today.. pleading for paper not so difficult pls.. hahahah =).. gambate everyone worhs =)

today's is not a day for me to take exams.. i'm feeling so sick.. wasnt feeling when i was doing my paper.. dun think i will do well for e maths paper 1.. shall try my best to buck up on paper 2 le.. dunno how am i going to take my ss paper later.. i feeling so restless and sick.. was feeling giddy while doing the paper.. hate it when i'm not feeling well.. i cant do things to my fullest.. will be disappointed with my maths results i guess.. haiz.. hoping later i'll be alrite.. really falling sick already.. argh.. next paper starting at 2.. hope during this in btwn 3 hrs break tat i'll feel better.. and well enough to take my paper.. *disappointed*=maths...

*study*

ya.. meiyi's back here again.. real o lvl is starting soon.. papers coming up are..

mon(06/11) -- e maths paper 1 and ss
tues(07/11) -- no papers
wed(08/11) -- eng paper 1 and 2
thurs(09/11) -- geog paper 2
fri(10/11) -- e maths paper 2

mon(13/11) -- no papers
tues(14/11) -- amaths paper 1
wed(15/11) -- phys paper 1 and 2, geog paper 1
thurs(16/11) -- amaths paper 2, chem paper 1 and 2

hmmm..wad a tiring schedule of exams.. really feeling kinda restless.. but still.. forcing myself to study real hard.. as i dun wanna get bad results.. hmmm.. and 16th nov shall be my last day of exams.. and till then i shall be playing and going back for band prac.. argh.. tired seh... alumni prac. starting on 18th nov.. and 5-day camp coming up for preparation of POP.. wooo.. that shall be my last day in the band as a bandsmen.. and till den i will be passing down everything to my new batch of leaders.. wishing the best for them.. POP will be on 2nd nov.. so anyone willing to come and see? FOC..wahahah =).. hmm den aft that shall be working to earn money.. hope it wont be a tiring one.. shall keep myself as busy as possible.. shall not think of anything else and juz concentrate... stay probs away from me.. i dun wish to get involved anymore..

feeling tired of everything now.. studies?relationship?wad else? dunno.. i think i juz dun wish to think.. i wanna go back to malaysia.. to a place.. where i feel so relax.. a place where i can play and enjoy the breeze of the silent night.. a place where i can lay out at the corridor of my grandma's hse at the garden.. looking high up in the sky filled with stars and looking afar.. a place where i can view the nicest view of genting.. the lights that filled the whole genting with beautiful colours.. so beautiful~.. haiz.. been so long nv get tgt with my cousins already.. kinda miss them.. really hoping to go back.. wish to stay there for weeks.. and not think of anything.. it's also a place where i can free myself from probs.. and relax my mind.. i dun wish to think.. i wanna avoid.. which i am doing now.. thinkin of consequences if wrong decisions are made?.. hmmm.. better dun think.. den everything will be rite... I WANNA GO BACK!!!!!!!!!! *missing u so much cousins~*.. when will i able to go with u to chill and play again?..*sighs*

i rmbed the time when u used to play at the playground??? hahah the rusty and dirty individual sections of the playground.. also the time where we played hide-and-seek in the unfinished condo opposite my grandma's hse.. so eeerrriiieeee~ during the night.. scared ourselves due to some things happening in betwn while were playing.. wahahha =).. shall not say wad is it... wahahaha =X.. hahah so memorable times i had.. wish to go back to the past.. however.. dun think will get a chance to play with them anymore.. as all are growing up.. happy childhood time are over.. missing those days.. thinking back those days really brought back my smile.. wish to be lyk this everyday.. *sighs*..

"living in a world of my own" shall be wad i shld do now.. not thinking of anything else.. and playing myself out as much as possible... take care..

*study*

hmmm.. juz a notice for people out there whom always view my blog.. thanx for listening to all the craps and things i said.. and ya.. juz to tell ur.. i'll not be blogging or online for 3 weeks till my o level ends.. which is on 16 nov (the last day of exams).. and ya wishing all people taking exams tmr and subsequently.. all the best and study hard.. shall work hard and do our best tgt ya?.. take care people.. =)