hmm.. physics practical exams was today.. hmmm.. as i was down for the 1st shift.. although there are 4 shifts.. lyk so sway can.. okaes.. had to wake up early.. juz lyk normal sch time.. argh.. damn it la.. if i were the 2nd shift at least i still can slp longer.. waking up so tired and slpy.. prepare and set off to the sch.. was quite prepared for the exams.. as usual.. the principal is so damn naggy.. lyk one ah peh.. keep talking non stop.. hahah.. as my exam start at 8.. were told to go to the AVA room halfway when the principal is giving his speech.. wahahah.. mr ooi gave us a little brief of the practical exam and suddenly.. he told us there's a new kind of practical questions.. den we were lyk.. "damn it.. why are we so unlucky".. omg la.. was not taught this kind of planning int he first place.. and i think for that part.. not many could score bah.. needless to say.. most of my classmates cant do.. and aft the practical.. everyone was complaining that it's hard.. my paper was seperated into 2 parts.. where 1st part.. got 2 questions and planning part.. and 2nd part is one question link with drawing of graphs.. 1st part was rather difficult as the lens is so small.. so damn difficult to see through the lens.. aiyo.. dunno how to say la.. juz damn hard to see la.. wahahhaa..

other than tat was quite ok.. but as for my graph question.. think i lose quite a few marks here and there.. as din plot well and gradient not rite.. aiya.. nvm it's over.. hahha.. juz do better in other parts of the paper will be alrite.. coming up next would be on:~

-mon(30/10) = mother tongue paper 1 and 2 (retake)
-tues(31/10) = pure chemistry practical
-thurs(02/11) = combined humanities (literature)

" wOrK hArd wOulD bE thE kEy tO sUcCesS "

<<19/10>>

class of 4E5 students.. 4E5'06.. gonna part soon.. miss u guys loads =/



<<20 oct>>

hehe.. thanx everyone for the celebration ytd..
love u guys loads man..
went to watch "death note" ytd..
nice show indeed.. was a 2 hr show.. hahaha..
but tat guy was such a bastard..
sacrifice his gf juz for his sake..
wth..
wad kind of guy is he?
dots.. argh.. shld have given him that shot..
hahaha..
although it was a simple celebration..
i love it..
haha.. thanx everyone.. =)

as for now.. aft my bday...
i shall concentrate on my studies le..
left 11 DAYS to O LEVEL!!!
argh.. SO DAMN FAST CAN?
hmm.. no time left.. practical is on the way..
NEXT THURS!!!!! ARGH!!!! =/..
OMG LA!!!
gonna start preparing for practical..
den papers..

a message to all:~
jia you for this coming o lvl ya..
let's fight till the end..
we'll be able to make it..
GAMBATE!!! =)

today..
went out at ard 5+?
haha.. went to pass willmen some practical notes of mine..
for his practical exams tmr..
gd luck to u guys for those who's taking the exam tmr..
GAMBATE!!! =)o..
aft passing him the notes..
went to meet btrice to study..
of course..
not forgetting out dinner..
went to eat first den proceed to study..
was studying at mac at je entertainment centre..
saw quite a no. of people there..
first..
saw zikun there.. with his grp of frens i think..
dunno.. haha..
den saw eddy and gf with their frens..
carried on..
saw adam and frens..
den saw zameer.fauzi and one 4N guy..
dunno wad's his name..
den saw sanjay.. and fren..
hahha.. dunno why.. suddenly..
so many people appearing at je..
den.. went home ard 9+..

GoOd lUck fRenS.. aLL tHe bEsT fOr tMr's pRacTicAl yeah!!!

<16/10> monday


hmmm.. the haze these days have been up and down.. one day can be up to 100+.. the nest day can go down to less than 100.. unpredictable weather.. hmmm.. look at today.. the haze is so bad.. that pic is taken when i was still having lessons in sch in the afternoon.. OMG.. scary la.. i think tat PSI is abt 150??? think so ba.. den aft sch.. went to look at the band.. talk to my leaders a while.. abt upcoming programs.. hope they will do a gd job ya.. anyway.. i'm gonna put away all these until o lvl ends.. den aft their band ends.. went to eat prata with mad.jamie.haikal.jurina.jon and meijing.. hahaha as time is still early.. decided to walk there instead of taking a bus.. yappie.. reach there ard 6.30pm.. waited for ard half an hour before we started eating..hahaha.. had a fun time with them.. chatting and laughing all along.. hahaha.. den went home..

<15/10> sunday




went out to study with btrice aft sch today.. at jp mac.. was there ard 3+ i guess.. then start studying.. as we were bored.. btrice starting decorating her hands with some colour pens.. haha.. and ended up with words of that.. yappie.. den as i saw her drawing was eager to draw also.. den starting doing mine.. =)0.. and when we combine it tgt.. it will look lyk the first pic there.. hahha.. fun time.. den aft that went to WLDs.. saw melvin there with his fren studying i guess.. hahaha.. had his hair cut?.. haha i guess so.. look super damn short now.. hahaha..

went out to study today.. was pretty tired..
i wonder wad nowadays people are thinking.. is other people trying to care for them is a wrong thing to do? i really wonder.. giving juz a simple reply of msg.. is that so difficult to do and so hard to type? argh.. really hate tat to happen man.. simple few words also dun bother to type.. wad does this means? i dunno.. pretty hack care? or juz simply dun wanna listen to wad other people says.. worst still if the person reply ur msg for one.. and den suddenly disappear.. and when u tried smsing the person.. and the person doesnt wans to reply or juz dun bother to look at the msg.. how will u feel? worried? vexed? or wad? i dunno.. maybe a combination of everything.. or mayb aft a few hours den giv u a reply.. uh huh? so wad u wan the person to do aft that? giv u a scolding? or juz simply keep quiet.. life is so terrible.. wonder why this people could simply juz treat their frens invisible.. unpredictable.. dun even understand why these people have the heart to do it this way.. damn it man.. probs and probs coming again.. argh.. feeling so vexed now.. argh =/

hmmm.. guess things have been better aft days.. but still to think of it.. not really everything cleared i guess.. mum's back from bali.. and hoping things will be better.. but i dun seems to see any.. juz tat i'm breakfree from household chores.. o lvl is nearing but although i'm afraid of the upcoming exams.. i feel somethings different too.. something that i myself cant figure it out.. wondering why i'm feeling this way.. hmmm.. moreover.. i'm hopin that o lvl would finish as soon as possible.. but somehow.. in a way i dun wish that o lvl would be over that fast.. feelings and things are juz not right.. band has resume for my juniors.. and ytd i was damn pissed with the kinds of attitude my leaders are showing towards us.. i can dun help if they choose to be lyk this.. but dun let me find out ur did smth wrong or juz a small little mistakes.. if i found out.. u guys are going to get it hard from me.. i said wad i meant..

argh.. things have been happening through these days.. i juz wan to be free... cant my mum juz give me my freedom to do wad i wan? argh.. hated to study.. going out is even more difficult.. i dun this kind of life.. juz wanna go out to study with frens.. also damn hard.. juz hope everything will be back to normal aft o lvl.. i hated this kind of life.. to be control fully by someone and cursing and swearing that things are happening.. tired.. dun feel lyk studying anymore.. but still have to.. as o lvl is nearing.. 17 more days to o lvl and 11 more days to o lvl practical exams.. how well am i getting ready to face this major exams of mine.. i'm not sure.. i wanna sort out my feelings but this is not the right time yet.. as for now.. i will concentrate on my studies.. and hoping things will be better aft my o lvl... band is still in a mess i guess.. dun wanna talk much abt it.. put it aside meiyi.. and CONCENTRATE on ur studies.. TIS IS WAD U ARE SUPPOSED TO DO AND NOT WORRYING ABT THE BAND!!! WAKE UP!!!! life has been so bad recently.. argh.. *outta to study*

a pic taken when i met her at je.. haha.. of course i've edited it.. =)

and ya.. 2 days ago.. saw winnie and keith at the bus interchange when i was about to go home.. had a little chat with winnie.. miss her so much.. so long nv see her liao.. haha.. nice chatting with her.. will catch up with her soon aft my o lvl or mayb on my bday? hahah.. kkaes.. take care worhs winnie =)

okaes.. people.. once again i'm back.. to think of it.. i feel a little childish to say it to u.. i'm sry for being harsh in the first place.. things started with me and i'll be the one to end it.. 5 days have pass.. a lot of things have been whirling through my mind.. although i do not noe wad exactly i'm feeling right now.. things are getting better.. i hope.. these few days.. wad have i done?.. feeling confused? feeling unsure? feeling troubled? i dunno.. things keep flashing through my mind.. i wonder how's everyone.. being lyk this.. is it really that wonderful? i really wonders.. i feel numb.. but thinking of it.. i want to let go of everything.. starting anew.. but can i?

tears filled my eyes with wonders and sadness..wad exactly am i feeling right now? has things really been cleared or is it still hanging there half way through my life? okaes.. mayb things have already passed through that stage and become better.. but why dun i feel anything at all? i feel nth right now but numb..wad's all abt life?love?frenship? do i really understand? maybe i dun.. i'm starting to get detest towards guys..wad in life do i really want? cant make up my mind rite n0w.. mayb i shld juz hack everythings aside and concentrate on my upcoming o lvl exams.. ya i think i shld and i will..

talking abt all my feelings.. ya.. i'm out this few days.. mayb that is why things keep popping up in my mind..this 2 days was out with zy to study.. and lyk so sway can? i lost money and card on the bus while on the way to meet him to study.. argh.. damn it.. wad a day i had man.. damn it.. first time go out with him.. jiu lost things liao.. sway can...argh.. bad day i had..was kinda moody that day.. argh.. sianz.. but was a fruitful day i had la.. was coaching him with maths and ss.. think he was quite happy that he'll be able to pass his maths la.. haha.. but however he said that he's gonna flunk for his ss.. haha.. no choice lo..who ask him last min den study.. wahahah.. cant help him..

today only went for chem lessons.. thght was going to take the test.. argh.. damn it.. go sch le den noe tat mr tan postpone the test to thurs.. worst still is in the late aftnoon.. argh.. and so i'm going to pon sch in the morning on thurs and only go to sch at ard 11.40am.. wahahah.. precisely i'm no longer interested in that naggy ah ma's[ms shamsiah] class of maths.. argh.. so i pon class today.. and damn it la.. this fri supposed to be marking day for our sch.. and guess wad.. my class is supposed to go back for phys lesson from 9-12.. argh.. wad a day.. being said by mr ooi, "i can mark the papers during weekend so i wan ur to come back on fri for extra lessons..".. sianz 1/2..ya and if next fri..on the 20th..he's going to askus back again.. haha.. i'm not gonna go back..asking me to study on my bday.. wait long long ya.. hahhaa.. =)

sianz.. o lvl is juz ard the corners.. my first written paper is starting on the 2nd of nov.. argh.. and it's lyk how many days left? LESS THAN A MONTH!!!..argh..how to survive? really have to study damn hard.. i need to get gd grades.. and it's a MUST!! okaes.. think that's the end of it.. really wonders how's them now?? and thinking of my kor.. wondering how's he eh? seems moody this day and kinda not feeling tat happy ya? hmm. juz hope everyone is alrite and happy lyk we used to hang out.. =/

to start with..
unpleasant things have been reoccurring..
times and times again..
i guess this time is my fault..
someone juz woke me up from my mistakes..
and of course..
thanx to him..
anyway.. if u're looking at my entry..
i'm srry for my harsh words that i used on u..
srry for being so unreasonable..
4 yrs of frenship.. i noe it's cherishable..
i did the wrong thing by saying tat..
i dunno why i say it out that day..
but i think over for some time..
mayb i wasnt feelin rite at that time..
i'm srry btrice..
i've once again spoilt our frenship ya?
srry..

guys..
juz to tell ur..
i'm not going to blog until i'm alrite..
i need a break out of everything..
might be long..
might be short..
everything started with me..
and ya.. fault lies within me..
if i hadnt been so not trustworthy..
things mite have been better..
sorry my frens..
i think i've hurt u guys a lot..
sry for all that i've done..
give me a break and leave me alone..
there's things i think i shld settle myself..
instead of u guys helping..
sorry to pull u guys down..

i've loads of things in mind..
i need a break now..
to break free myself..
take care frens.. =)

haha.. making a joke out of urself huh?
fun rite?
at least.. i'm not lyk u..
still linger ard the past..
so concern abt me huh?
still wan to talk abt me in ur blog huh?
haha..
den i shall wait for ur next entry ya?
not lyk u..
wanting me to be as miserable?
haha..
u cant get things over wan me to be lyk u huh?
haha..
u wait long long la..
go and tell every1 abt it la..
lyk to say so much abt me..
wahaha..
thanx for the puclicity ya.. save my time..
let's wait and see..
not bad huh?
still rmb wad i say to u huh?
wah.. so gd huh?
dun u think is a joke..
hahaha..
why bother abt all that aft we already break?
trying to make my reputation as bad as urs?
thanx worh.. mine is already bad..
so who bothers.. only u?
wahahah..
laughing myself out..
wooo.. i shall see wad exciting events coming up..
woo! =)

JUNWEI..
U LYK TO SAY SO MUCH ABT ME..
WHY DUN U COME HERE AND FIND ME..
SO ASSHOLE..
TRYING TO BE SO INNOCENT INFRONT OF MY MUM..
YA I NV FAIL MY ENG..
U VERY SAD HUH?!!!!
WOO.. THANKS FOR UR CONCERN MAN..
GREATLY APPRECIATED.. =)
SO BOLD!!!
WHY DUN COME FACE TO FACE TALK OUT WIT ME..
SUCH AN ASSHOLE..
YA SO HAPPY TO SEE MY RETRIBUTION RITE?!!
YEAH.. I'LL BE DOING VERY WELL TO ACCEPT IT..
I KNOW WAD I'M GONNA GET...
NO NEED U TO HELP ME DO PUBLICITY..
DUN SO FAST TOO HAPPY K?!!!
ANYWAY I'M NOT GONNA BE THE ONLY ONE TO GET ALL THESE..
I'LL SHALL SEE WAD WILL HAPPEN TO U TOO!!!
THANKS GUYS!!!!
LUV U MAN!!