luckily i pass my eng..
although results weren't tat gd aft all...
still kind of pleased with it..
was so tired ytd..
met up wit btrice darhl..
actually wanted to study..
but je entertainment mac's table was damn small..
so instead of studying..
i help her with her art..
so tiring of doing art..
felt so lucky that i wasnt an art student..
if not very jia lat..
everyday also muz pia art..
tat's gonna take up a lot of time man..

juz had tuition juz now..
woke up quite late..
but juz in time fre tuition..
but still very tired..
had been sick for days..
and today is lyk one week le?
haha.. hate to be sick..
stupid sore throat and flu..
tmr outing to sentosa???
hmmm..
dun think will be going..
but kinda sad if nv go..
so temptin to go..
sianz.. o lvl is lyk less than a month?
and preparation was tiring..

always got the feeling of playing now..
dun feel lyk studying..
wanna play!!!!
but sad.. need to study first..
muz endure another 1 and half month so..
aft 17th of nov..
den can go and enjoy myself out..

sad.. this yr wont be celebrating my bday i guess..
so near to o lvl..
everyone will be busy preparing for o lvl..
7 dwarfs wont be free either..
need to study..
hmmm.. but it's ok..
doesnt matter whether celebrating a not..
so long as frens are still there..
will be frens foreva.. =) *sMiLe*

hmmm..
wad's new? schling starts again..
and wad..
tmr.. it's gonna start INTENSIVE REVISION!!!!
argh.. life is not gonna be gd aft all..
exactly 1 more month from today till o lvl..
have to start prepare myself well for o lvl..
as i dun wan to regret anything..
or tat i din do well..

i regretted why i din really study hard for prelims..
make so many careless mistakes..
moreover.. it pulls down my grade..
kind of saddening ya?
hmmm..
my results for prelims wasnt that great aft all..
results have been gonig down the hill..
maths scoring lower and lower..
sadded.. =(

so wad am i feeling now?
feelings are so unsure..
i guess i'll juz stay as it is until aft o lvl then think ba..
think too much now no gd..
later cant concentrate in class..
wahahaha..
really miss the day at chalet..
was so fun..
nv had so much fun before aft my japan trip..
hope my o lvl faster finish..
so i can go enjoy and play!!! =)..

bday boi.pat's [2nd dare]... wwahaha =X

my [dare].. was to kiss miao.. =X whahaha..

charles..[2nd dare].. hugging a tree.. =)

charles was next..[dare].. he was asked to hug and kiss the tree.. =)

miao's turn..[dare].. she was ask to take photo with one of the guy from another chalet group..

pat's turn.. [dare]... haha ju-on climbing down the stairs.. so scary.. =X

[truth or dare].. joe chose dare.. so he was forced to kiss guan.. haha =)

bday boy pat was splashed =)

joe was being splashed =)

guan was being splashed by water.. =)

pat win.. and guan was being sabo.. haha =X

fun fun fun.. peeps playing were..guan.pat.me.charles.joe and miao =). [anti-clockwise direction]

playing korean hand game.. haha winner will use water balloons and burst on the person before the winner.. hehe.. so fun..

the "pi kong lion".. haha water coming out from nose instead of the mouth[merlion].. haha..

pat and joe playing with water while me and miao was filling water balloons.. =)

me and kim guan =)..i was so red..haha cos drank red wine.. =X

me and pat(bday boy) .. =)

woo.. juz back home today at 1pm
was so tiring.. haha
ut had great fun man..
went to pat's chalet ytd morning..
meet at 9 and reach there ard 10.30..
den went to play at the beach..
first plaed the volleyballs den carried on..
was sitting at the so called "cliff" near the beach..
haha was damn bored at that time..
had nth to do.. haha..
den wahahahaha!..
we had a plan.. was to push pat into the water..
haha.. so we were saying we wanted to wash our legs..
asking him over too..
and ya he came over haha.. den from his back..
we push him in..haha.. den he came out wet.. haha..
den one by one.. went into the water..
pat pulled us in.. only 4 of us were drenched..
pat was first..followed by miao.joe. den me..
wah.. was damn fun.. but was so cold..
haha..

den went back to the chalet and dry up a little..
den went to swim at the swimming pool..
so sad.. miao cant get into the water..
so me.btrice.joe and pat went in.. and played for a while..
was quite fun.. haha.. and miao was lookin at punks..
woo..haha den we make fun of her saying she's drooling..
hahahahahaha..
by tat time was abt 5.30 already..
so went back to chalet for the bbq..

bbq lasted for few hours..
most of them left at ard 10..
den left over people were lyk so bored..
cos only 8 of us were left there..
was feeling so wet aft all.. as we din bathe..
haha.. den miao thght of playing water balloons..
so me followed her and went to buy..
but so sad was when we came back..
only joe and pat was there..
others went to play pool..
haha.. the 4 of us have fun filling the water balloons in the toilet..
keep splashin water at each other..
haha.. den 4 of us started playing it first..
den. when the rest came back..
we continue to play water game.. haha
played the korean finger game with one hand..
haha.. only those have extra clothes were playing..
aft water balloons.. we played truth and dare..

when it's "truth".. haha..
everyone was lyk kinda paiseh..
haha.. cos dun feel lyk answering one..
haha.. but of course we had to la..
aft which we finish playing went back to eat..
everyone was so shack..
all dun wanna go bathe.. so slack until 4+..
den one by one went to bathe..
aft bathing.. everyone went to slp..
haha.. were so tired..
woke up ard 9+.. den packed and check out ard 10+
went to eat and den take train home..

was such a fun day at nite..
although only 8 of us were there..
haha guess every1 had loads of fun last nite..
haha.. really enjoyed.. nv regret going there.. =)

today had chem paper 2 and mt paper 2..
both was quite alrite..
but however..
i dunthink i did quite well for chem also..
haiz saddening..
hope at least can get a B i happy le for prelims..

mt was sianz..
paper was 1 and 1/2 hrs long
but i only used 1 hr and finish it..
usually wasnt this way..
will be using fully of the 1 and 1/2 hrs to do..
dunno why today do so fast..
den very slpy.. so take a short nap..
haha..

tmr had papers still..sadden..
2 MORE DAYS..
and yea.. i'll finish my prelims..
wahahaha..
den i can go paly lyk mad...
haha enjoy myself before o lvl comes..
wahaha

*gO bAcK sTuDy lE*..

sianz..
today's paper was tough..
or shld i say i din prepare well..
hmm not v sure myself too..
e maths paper 2 din do quite well i guess..
a lot of dunnos inside me when i saw the paper..
not enough time to finish also..
haiz sad..
marks juz lyk tat fly away..

den was literature paper..
it wasnt on my side either..
as i was not very sure abt the text..
i guess i'm gonna flung again..
argh.. such a bad day..

den went to btrice hse to slack..
watch teebee and chit chat on net..
knew new frens?
haha.. can say quite nice la he..
very funny and interesting guy..
haha..guess was quite a long chat..
den.. went home and bathe.. eat..
den went for tuition at bukit batok..

back home =)..
*sTuDyInG tImE*

exams.. stressed!!

why have prelims?
why have exams?
why have probs?
why dunno how to do?
why so difficult?
why why why?

questions tat always ask urself during the doing of papers
juz had my emaths paper 1 and phys paper 2 juz now
maths was still alrite..
however, phys was not easy..
i think i'm not going to pass again..
dun have the confidence tat i'll pass
once again.. the word "FAIL" appears in my mind
phys is so difficult although is plain understanding
but i still cant be able to do it..
juz hoping if my paper 1 can do well
giv me a borderline pass i'm also happy..

went to eat at mac wit mel
saw a group of so called "ah bengs"
all from hong kah sec..
talking so loud..
so irritatin of them.. argh..

also saw my primary sch fren..
lincoln and gerald..
so tao one they all..
dun wan to say hi to me..
only lincoln say..
gerald act studying nia.. aiyo..
was quite surprised to see them here
as usually they dun come here..

juz started my prelims ytd.. had ss and a maths paper 1 papers ytd..
ss was alrite.. answers were all in my o lvl guide bk..
same kind of questions appeared in the exams..
haiz..if i had memorise harder..i guessed maybe i'll score better..
nvm.. since it's over.. but i guess shld be able to pass..
as for a maths..paper was rather difficult..left some parts blank..
din noe how to solve..
starting the paper was alrite
but towards question 8 i think..
starting to become difficult..
din quite understand wad the question was asking for but still..
i'll do my best in paper 2 but heard was rather difficult..
that's all for ytd..

today.. had geog paper 2..
ytd was busy preparing for it but mayb i was a little last min..
too many things nv study..
panicked the whole night and this morning..
i only got to study my txtbk but not my notes and guide books..
haiz guess i wont do well for geog..
as most of the questions were roughly here and there..
where the teacher had gone through before..
i felt rather relaxed now as impt papers for this week has ended..
next week had to work very hard for all my papers..

tmr is a day off but still i have to study for my chem prac. and chi paper 1
we were not very used to doing of practicals..
so i guess shld be a prob for scoring but still..
there's still a chance..
i'll work for it and so as to pull up my marks for my chem papers..
so as for phys..

moreover.. i still hope my band is doing well..
wish to go back to see them but..
din have the time and also becos of some things..
depends..

ytd nite din slp well.. cant get to slp.. trying to slp for at least 2 hrs.. den go to slp.. cause the memory of that bad nightmare i had keep flashing back in my head.. really damn terrible.. i dunno how to not think of it.. hate to recall back.. but also wanting to noe wad happen next.. haiz.. wad shld i do? i wish to forget abt it.. but i cant seems to do anything.. trying to force myself to do things so tat i wont rmb.. but however.. it dun seems to work anyway.. haiz..

this morning wasnt able to wake up.. felt very tired and slpy.. slept ard 1+ and needed to wake up at 7.. was damn slpy and tired.. din wanna go sch today.. but still.. went as prelims are near.. needed to prepare.. hmmm... went to sch for chem lessons and test today.. last mock paper i only got 29/80.. haha.. nice one.. sianz.. i'm failing almost most of tests.. how am i going to survive through prelims.. felt so tired and stressed.. hoping exams could faster over den i can relax..

halfway through the lessons.. my chem teacher,mr tan,suddenly flare up at jiankai.. poor jian kai.. was chased out of the class as he was rude to him.. to say.. this is the first time in my 4 yrs taught by mr tan tat he got so worked up.. when he shouted so angrily.. the whole class was in complete silence.. so scary of him.. den he continued his lessons and jian kai waited at the canteen for us to finish our test.. after test.. we went to eat and was happily chatting.. haha..

den aft tat.. we all went seperate ways.. went to meet btrice as her lessons ended at 12 whereas mine ended at 11.. den went to play pool at arena.. for i guess 2-3 hrs den headed to jp to eat.. aft which miranda went home and i went to btrice's hse.. din have the mood to study.. so went to play bball for i think 2 hrs.. really enjoyed playing it man.. hmmm.. but still my mind keep asking me to study.. i really hope i can forced myself to study.. cant play anymore.. muz tell myself wan play.. play aft o lvl or at least aft prelims relaxed for a few days.. gambate meiyi!!! =)

kept thinking abt the bad nightmare i had.. dunno why.. whole of today.. no matter wad i do.. go play pool.. go play bball.. still thinking of it.. haiz.. save me someone.. really hated this kind of dreams tat i had and keep pestering me in my mind.. really hope to slp well tonite.. i'm really damn tired.. but my eyes are wide open now.. ahh.. haiz.. told btrice the whole bad nightmare i had juz now.. aiyo.. dunno how sia.. now every move i do.. i very scared.. that scary path of my dreams keep appearing in my mind.. really very scared.. wanna cry now.. *cries*..

went home.. bathe and den now talking to him.. really hope to forget abt the nitemare.. haiz
ended with the day kind of bad.. hoping to be real alrite.. wanna smile lyk before.. =((

had a bad dream last nite.. i guess it was the most scariest one i ever had.. i dunno why i dreamt of this kind of thing last nite.. so scary.. the dream began lyk this.. i dunno where it started from.. out of no where.. but i rmb it was somewhere very dark and very scary.. surrounding was full of dirty objects and funny looking walls.. there is a lot of entrance to dunno where.. dunno where it connects to.. i rmb i was with a grp of frens there.. dunno where we landed there also.. it was somewhere near my hse.. there's an alley outside my hse.. juz similar to the alley outside my hse.. it's a very long alley that connects to a very dark place.. with no lights.. no lamp post or anything there.. look as though it was a building similar to tat of a cave lyk a palace with no entrance and no exit.. started off together with my grp of frens.. cant rmb who they are.. we were in this unfamiliar place.. started walking and walking.. but still no light and felt very scared.. we were empty handed.. no torchlight.. so we tried to stay as close.. den out of a sudden.. dunno why.. some of my frens are gone.. dun quite rmb wad happen juz noe tat.. frens are missing.. dunno where they went.. one by one.. gone.. left me alone.. shouted for them and almost cried.. din noe wad to do.. i carried on walking.. den saw this path.. standing at the entrance.. a very very long path with one sided handle on the left side and hollow beside.. the path is lyk coming out from the middle of the terence hse.. with top..sides.. and bottom hollow.. veyr scary and dark.. as i walk into it i hear funny noises.. scary too..walk and walk.. and started running and crying aft which i hear someone talk.. with a deep voice.. i look ard and step backwards.. almost fall from the some kind lyk a brigde path.. i felt as though someone's trying to grab me.. looking at the dark walls at the sides of the path.. felt as though there were lots of hands.. really damn scary... i carried on running.. cant rmb wad happened next..then i saw someone i know and felt relieved as at least someone is ard to accompany me.. then i rmb i went home with someone and wanted to search for a torchlight.. found it and at home i saw a man and 2 children.. i dunno why and i also dunno who are they.. they asked me wad happened.. i took the torchlight and ran out of the hse.. and told them to lock the hse securely.. den i turned ard.. the someone who is with me was gone.. i dunno where the person went.. i cant seems to find them.. i'm very scared.. den i carried on runnin hoping i could find tat person.. but i cant.. den i realised i came back to the entrance whereby there is only one path.. den i carried on walking.. den i saw my friends who came was with me at the beginning.. all lying on the floor.. breathless.. at different places but nearby.. i felt so terrified.. i din noe wad to do.. i cried den i heard smth.. ot is someone calling my name.. i started running to dunno where..

den i was woke up le.. my dream din end.. i dunno wad happened next.. it's true.. i really dreamt of smth lyk tat.. i dunno how to descride the place.. really very very scary and horrible.. dark and dirty.. dunno why i was there also.. hope i wont dream any of tat dream today.. woke up sweating all over.. dunno why..

wake up le went to bathe and then prepare for my tuition.. din have the appetite to eat.. aft that scary dream of mine i had.. den told him abt it and hoping nth will really happen but really seems so true.. hmmm.. aft tuition.. tried to cheer myself up and forget abt the dream.. by playing audition dance party.. den went to take a nap as i'm having a headache the whole aftnoon.. woke up ard 5? i think.. dunno.. msg him.. dunno why he not feeling so bad.. aft which.. knowing the reasons.. felt so bad.. dunno wad i did wrong.. but aiya.. maybe it's my fault.. hmmm.. juz hopin things are alrite.. day ended here.. hoping my dream wont continue tonite.. wad a wierd dream i had.. hmmm.. =(.. dunno if i wanna go sch for chem test tmr ma.. haiz.. so bored and tired of test.. ask ard first den see wan go ma..

today.. was a laughter.. guess wad.. at morning 6+ my mum woke me up and ask me to get ready for sch.. haha.. i almost fell into the trap of tiredness.. haha.. luckily i was still a little awake.. and told my mum.. 'why u call me so early for? today is teacher's day.. no need to go to sch' haha.. and laughs.. haha.. den i went back to slp.. but i juz cant to slp.. so i juz lie on the bed till nobody's at home anymore.. den woke up aft btrice called me.. sounded a little tired in the conversation with her on da phone den forced myself up to wash up and wait for her to come..

whole day staying at home.. with btrice doing her art and ard 5plus.. jaime came along.. day was so boring as audition dance battle was down for maintanence.. hoping to play at nite.. but cant.. din get the chance to play the whole of ytd.. slacking at home with btrice and jaime.. watch tv.. chit chat and they went home ard 8+.. sent them down and went back home to watch tv.. din have a gd slp due to some reasons.. hope to slp well today.. felt so exhausted and slpy.. hoping tmr i could get to play audition..